I pulled an all nighter, I'm tired as hell. I got inspired to loose weight, since I'm fat as hell after all. But what does my sister decide to do? Get mad at me for making too much noise. I'm sick of everything. My best friend is fake and toxic, along with my family. My mom is with her boyfriend in a different state for the holidays, I'm stuck with my father who puts so much pressure on us. Yet so sad at the same time. I've been cleaning, helping out. I'm sick of it. I have no one to talk to. I feel tired, but I cant go to sleep cause then I cant help my grandmother with the gardening. But at the same time I don't want to help. I just want my mother to be home, without worrying about school, or my weight, or anything in general. Everything has always been the same, and nothing has f***ing changed. I'm tired. Its sickening, I just wanna escape.