I'm trying to control everything, trying to guess how things are gonna be. Struggling to make this supposedly perfect image I've got in my mind about how things should be turn into reality… and the possibility of me not living up to my own expectations and just getting hurt takes up so much space in my head. It feels as though I'm completely going crazy . I don't know what to feel .I mean,there's a few great things going on in my life as of right now, but there's also bad stuff going on .I get it, that's life .But I can't control the way I feel :/ why am I like this ?