I can remember a time when my mind was clear. I had picked up a book on meditation that came along with a CD. I practiced for about a week, then it happened. As I did the start of what I had learned I could tell something was different. I cleared my mind of all thoughts that would pop up, focused my breathing, relaxed, envisioned blank, white, clear, nothing but not in that order. I kept going back and reminding myself over and over again if I got sidetracked. Then it happened, for almost moments I was at peace. At the moment, calm, it seemed counterfeit. I lost it, everything came flooding back and I couldn't get in that state of meditation again.