Looks like this will be the only place I will get my writing fix. Writing isn't as important as reading but it is more important than not reading. I have aged early and even right now this moment am feeling the affects of it. Luckily I still have my wits about me but I do have to fight for them too. I think some addictions can be healthy. I have called the crisis line four times this night and each time had a little different angle to unravel. One of my favorite books in college was my sort of writing which is stream of consciousness and he used as his "red" thread a memory of untangeling a fishing net. Now through each knot he was able to gain personal insights until finally the net was ready to use to go fishing again.