I don't know what else to do anymore, I keep asking for help from family, my friends, my boyfriend, and no one can help. I just want to die at this point and no one knows what to do besides make me feel guilty for that, they don't see how close to slipping off the edge I really am. I'm on medication that doesn't seem to be working, my doctors keep f***ing me around and I can't even find the motivation to work anymore. I don't know what to do anymore