I started getting actual help today.
Birth control out✓
Councilor referral✓
Now I need to look up therapist and get help
I hated talking to these people today. They made me feel vulnerable and I just wanted to cry. They were looking at me all sympathetically. It makes me not want to continue. This is going to be so emotional and it's easier to avoid it all but I need to do this. It's worse now at this age and it's becoming exhausting.