I offered my roommate a ride somewhere with me as a kindness since we both know people in the area. She said yes. Now I have this immediate feeling of like ugh why did I do that. I feel bad for feeling this way but man I don't want her to come. She cool she nice and funny. But man when I saw the "I'm done for it.," God I felt immediate regret. I think I wanted to go alone. I'm still gonna take her but damn that feeling was intense. I think I thought she was gonna say no and i wouldn't have to deal with extra planning around someone else's schedule.
God I'm awful.
I need to stop being so selectively social. It is not good. God now I want to cancel. I'm not. But man that feeling makes me feel bad.