I just googled "Somewhere to write" and this came up. What are the chances, it's exactly what I need. I don't want to do a blog, where friends and such feel obligated to read and comment and such. And maybe I don't really want anyone to see what's really on my mind either.
So given this was exactly what I was looking for today, I'm going to write about the fact that over the past 10 months I keep finding what I need just when I need them, even if I don't know it.
First I should tell you what happened 10 months ago. My world completely ended. That's so dramatic, isn't it? Okay, it *felt* like my world completely ended. My husband of many years told me he wanted to leave me. It was tough, but I got through it and I'm okay (and if you're going through it, you will be too! I promise. I'll come back to this one day no doubt). But that's not what I'm going to talk about today.
In the ten months since that happened I landed the perfect job. It's probably not what most people would determine as perfect mind you. It's not a "career", it's not loads of money – what it is, though, is exactly what I needed. My first day was about 5 days after my husband left me. The hours work round my kids. I love the job. It pays enough to let me run my own home. Speaking of which – I found the perfect house at just the right time… I had to move out of my exes and I didn't want to take forever.
Just as I had saved up *just* enough to move, and started to feel I was ready, I found the house I didn't know I'd been dreaming of. A garden, south-facing, big enough for me and the kids, close enough to family but far enough away too (if you know what I mean). We've been in there for 5 months now and I can't believe how settled we feel. I'm not totally daft, I know it's a symbol too. A symbol of my freedom and new chapter in my life. And I love it.
Thanks for taking the time to read my little self-reflective ramble. I get the feeling I might be back here again very soon.