She wants to save herself
She knew that she could, but it would take time. Time and maybe professional help.
All of the past years of hurt, guilt, and anger spewed out on to others.
Not intended, but when you are broken, it's easy to do.
She'll go slow and start to look inwards.
She'll get help eventually.
In the meantime she'll read self-help books and write.
She'll choose her actions and words more carefully.
She'll try to grow and become better on the inside.
She'll try to let go of the past even if it hurts.
She'll continue to learn.
She can and she will because it's the only thing left.