I have been married for a good 12 years now. We have sex often but there is no four play or romance. I have and never will cheat within my marriage. I often want a divorce not because my marriage is bad but because I get board easily. A part of me is in love with that first initial moment of meeting someone. If you have that connection from there it's flirting, it's excitement, it's over all a high to me. Then you slowly get to know them and learn about how someone new thinks, acts, lives…. More than any of that I get such a rush out of kissing them for the first time, touching them, and them touching me. I get so much pleasure from this first initial stage that when I have a dream about it I find myself waking in agony of wanting to get f***ed. I fear that maybe I will never be content with anyone because I am in love with just falling in love. Not the overall length, hard work, and responsibilities that follow. Or just maybe my husband needs to up his game in the romance field.