Today I had to be there for my best friend. Her grandfather died. I had to be there for her and set aside my feelings and I did ofc. Then I had to go sit in a hospital for 6 hours but I didn't even get to see the person or anyone cause they wouldn't let me. I had a break down while I was there and it wasn't because of the person in the hospital it was because of me and how I was feeling personally. But when I do I get called a disappointment and a bunch of other names and I feel like I cant tell anyone cause either they'll call me a brat(family) or I feel like I cant cause they already have enough in theyre own. Idk they say Im rude and disappointing for having feelings. I just feel like I have no one anymore and Idk what to do now. Im sorry if you wasted your time reading this Ik its stupid and everything.