Its another pooh bucket of a day. I am watching MLS soccer because i am just a pathetic lump of goo. I just masturbated over porn a blonde woman bending down to suck a man off. I feel icky and my pants are sticky and i can smell the sperm in the air. I opened the window and hear the distant sound of the main road. This evening i went out in the car driving on a few main roads a different journey to the usual. I got up to fifty miles per hour. I stopped close to the sea and looked up at the dark ultramarine sky as stars pin pricked through. I like sitting in the car at night, it feels relaxing. Its dark and anonymous. Filled up on petrol £20 worth. Did not park too well at the petrol (gas) station. The little Indian/Pakistani/Bangladeshi/Sri Lankan? man looked at me oddly. It was obvious he observed my bad parking but said nothing when i paid. The little coffee coloured man even let me off one pence!