I'm so f***ing thankful to all of these people that have been with me over the past year. Even if you don't even like me, even if I've only seen you once and we just had a powerful conversation, I'm thankful to you too as it's all those small little things that truly get to me and truly make me realise how beautiful people and life is. I don't know how I'll long I'll be here at this point but I have never been that calm and peaceful in my entire life. Even when there are still some things that cause me pain or even when I still think of him and start crying, I've never been that thankful and calm. I don't know if this is a good thing, but I just want to say thank you and I'm sorry.