I seem like a nice guy but deep down im a total bastard,ive no time for anyone really,i enjoy conversations,but it annoys me when i listen to someone talk about their life and their family,their children,i even have this with cousins and aunties they just bore the f*** out of me and their children talk,when im tired im worse,show them i lack interest,they see it in my eyes,im jealous,and envious i never had kids.I think its why im alone,why no one wants to be with me or around me.I deserve to be alone because im a bastard,but not a very bad bastard,just a below average bastard.And all im fit for,is to be around drunks drug addicts,f*** ups,lunatics,mentally ill,gambling junkies pot heads,hookers,im with the soul less,the misfits,the abused and the abusers.Ive got nothing going on for me,apart from this.for the rest of my f***ing days.maybe im more like my a****** dad than i really thought.