Honestly sometimes I feel so lonely and sometimes I feel on top of the world with nothing in my path and I guess I don't share any of this with my friends cause I don't know if I can trust them (yes I have trust issues). I just don't know what to think when they ignore me you know when they leave me out and when I feel so small and when they leave me to go with their other friends expecting me to follow like a lost puppy, you know how people feel insecure I mean I have slight insecurities about my body and how I dress but nothing big my main insecurities are from how my friends think of me or if my friends like me or if my friends think I'm annoying you know lately I've distanced myself from them and idk what to do because I absolutely love them but I cant keep hurting myself anymore I've been hurt to many time to let myself keep getting hurt and I wanna cry sometimes wanna scream at them to understand me for once because sometimes I realize they know nothing about me just what I put out in the open for everyone but them and I just don't know and I feel like they've been trying to distance themselves to anyway that's basically it oh wait I feel like my only real friend sometimes brings me down and anytime I try to bring up my feelings about what's happening she avoids the subject