My grandma left me and she was like my go to plan I went to her when s*** got really bad I don't have anyone but her, yeah I have my m om but I have only been living with her for 5 years now since my mom has taken me and my brothers away from her. I have lived with my grandma since I was 2 so me and her has had a lot of time to connect. I had honestly giving up with my mom shes way to much like me and act more like a kid then my 11 year old brother, sad to say but it couldn't be more true. anyway, my grandma resently just pasted away about two months ago everyone in my family has been crying it out and working threw it and I haven't I have been putting it behind me like it isn't there but honestly it is messing me up, I think about her everywhere, when I wake up, when I go to sleep. she wasn't even old she didn't need to die so soon she was about 58 and died of two different types of cancer, which really sucks how can that happen to such a strong loving person she loved me more then anyone because she knew the way I seen things she loved me and wasn't scared to tell anyone that me and her was closer then her ands her own daughter. when she died everyone looked at me like I was gonna melt down and I guess I took like 2-3 days off of school until my mom told me that people die and I have a life and I need to move on. she was something else and hated my grandma for stuff that was to long to type. but anyways, I have no one to talk about this with and it sucks I cant even talk to my own boyfriend because he just doesn't understand talking to him about feelings is like talking to a dog about trying to speak another langue like what? but yeah.. that's where im at