I feel like I don’t know who I am. I used to be very religious and now when I pray I just feel like there’s no connection. I went to nyc to chase my dreams of becoming a dentist and it turns out that nyc just wasn’t for me. I find myself questioning everything that I do and say. I’ve never felt so unsure of myself before. I feel like I let myself down and I feel so weak. I feel like I’ve worked so hard for this and now because of this I don’t feel like anything is worth it anymore not even myself . I feel super anxious about life and that would be okay if I was normally like this but I’m not. I would usually be asleep by now but I forgot my sleeping aide and now I remember why I take it in the first place. I can never be at peace with my thoughts because every moment of silence I get I feel like they’re consuming me. I feel sad because no one knows the extent to which I no longer value my life and it’s so sad to me. I don’t feel like I know who I am anymore, I’m just having a hard time.