I've finally got back to studying after a horrible but insightful gap year. But I'm a mess. I took a gap year to figure somethings out and to try to save up for some money for college but I haven't got my act together. I tend to have poor time management and I'm falling behind in my classes. I do try hard though. I really do try.
Just recently, I got my grade back from one of my favourite classes and it was so much lower than I expected it to be. My world is starting to seem grey in my eyes and I feel like I don't deserve to be in my course. I'm frustrated and I just want the world to stop for a bit. But I know it doesn't work like that. I still have other midterms to get through and then exams straight after. I'm so done.
The only thing that's keeping me going is my laboratory classes. It always reminds me why I took the course in the first place.