Do you ever feel like you are failing as a human being? I work in a medical field for almost three yrs and ive just resigned because i cannot take it anymore. I know im not good but i am trying my best and i am so hardworking but i inevitably make a lot of mistakes. Do you know the korean drama entitled "she was pretty"? i am kind of like that girl. I wanna try other jobs like myy Dad's job as a sales agent which was way different thatt what course i graduated but it is ten to fifteen times high paying salary than my work in thee hospital. My dad is a senior citizen now and it will be a waste if no one will take over his work. He wants my brother to do it but my brother doesnt want his work but he is forcing him to it. I want his work but he doesnt want me to work just because all his customers knew i work in the hospital and it is a proudly thing for him but i really hate my job. Im not good at it and i know i can be better with his work. Uggh. So much frustrations. I also dont have a lovelife. Never had been in a serious relationship but i want to love someone someday. I want to be motivated because right now i feel depressed and hopeless. If my future will be like this, i wonder if i want to live a hundred yrs old. Im 22 but i feel like im ok to die at 25 cause it doesnt matter anyway. My friends think im happy but i cant really be too open about this frustrations.