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I’m not sure what I’m doing here actually, but a thought came into my mind that I should just type something out about all this anger that I have built up inside me. I’ve recently started to notice that I’ve been getting angry or ticked off easily and from the slightest of inconvenience. It’s not an anger of which I’m usually used to, it’s more of a spontaneous eruption of pure hot anger that overflows and destroys the first thing it touches. I’m not sure if it’s the job that I have and it’s just because of the clients I work with (btw I’m in retail) but sometimes I just can’t help it and somethings slip out my mouth. I do my best to hold everything back, but as soon as I clock out it’s almost as if I’m a ticking time bomb at any moment I could explode. I’ve had moments where I plan out murders, fights, arguments, etc. all in my head. But there are times where I think to myself “why don’t I just drive right into oncoming traffic?” I have adult ADHD and take meds for it and keeps me pretty, what’s the word? Depressed, but you know what they say? It’s suppose to help you. Actually they don’t, but who cares anyways? I’m just trying to figure out a way to relieve to anger in a positive way that doesn’t include your basic “go outside, hang out with friends, take a walk” bulls***. Sometime genuine. Sorry for the long rant, here’s an imaginary potato ->

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