what if I always feel like I'm on the edge of hell? what if I feel like my time is running out, like water down the drain…. suicide? maybe. tragedy? definitely. distant? probably not. voluntary? never. morbid, or what??? Babies look into an eternity of time; life is shorter for others…. ice breaks against timeless cliffs, mountains bridge passage down sharp waves of blackness. even the sea breaks promise. how close? and the guide dreams far? tigers tearing and thrashing, nets clear, snap, and fall away; they are replaced by others yet stronger. memories add up; time rolls on; how long till I can see the end? I remain yet, locked behind the bars of a dubious security– my burning will to live!!!