I don't want to do this anymore, you've taken me over the edge, and I'm hanging on by a thread, I feel these things for you, and you have no intention of having them for me, I made a big mistake, I told people, your secret, and now I can't take it back, I'm sorry if this hurts you in any way, I dont know if it's a proper secret and all of our friends know, but I told someone you don't know, but they only know you from me, my description, all my stories, I can't hide the fact that I feel guilty as f***, and I can't take it back, when they asked me about it, I should have said I don't know or I meant to say blah blah blah, but it's too late now, and I'm so sorry I did that, and I wish I could take it back, erase it from their minds, make them forget everything I said, just so you don't hate me, because now the people I told, don't like you, just because you're unsure, and I support you, but they are against it and they have made their mind up about you, just from one little detail, and I'm so sorry, so so sorry, I wish I could see you, and make sure that we're ok, but you don't know I've done this, and that's why I feel guilty, I have strong feelings for you, and the closest I'm gonna get to 'us' is friends, I'm sorry I ever offended you before, I'm sorry about all those little things I have said about you behind your back, and now it's all come down on me that, I am not a nice person at all, and I need to just get out of the way, and stop being a d***, and be nicer, try make everyone happier, but I can't do that, I've spent too long trying, hoping that you'll understand, but I can't ever see that happening, because you are so hard and never understand, you have no idea about my feelings, and the only reason I did those things is because, I really like you, and I don't want to lose what we have, even if it's just friendship, it'll have to be good enough, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry…
For everything.