I don't to be with you anymore.
I hope that's the truth, but it is not. My heart is in pain just thinking about how much it would hurt once you leave me, but hey, what if I leave you first? Do you think that I'll feel like I won the war? Yes, the war. I don't think we can easily dismiss this argument as an argument or battle of wits, it's a war with our hearts at stake. You took your weapons and easily wounded me, you are such a fighter. You held swords and spears with those wide pair of hands, while I'm holding a loosy watergun, with my small trembling hands like a child. I am like a child. How can I argue with you knowing, at the end, it will be all my fault? That i will be forgiven for something that doesn't even have to be a sin. Is asking for your consideration a sin? What did I ever do to you to deserve this? I mean, What did I NOT do to deserve this? I don't trust your words anymore, you broke more promises that those you've kept. I was foolish enough that you will be the same from the start till the end, I am nothing to you.
Take care of yourself. I love yoy
Sincerely yours till the end,
J