I don’t understand how people can be happy. I try and try but it never comes. Most days I just think that I’m not meant to be happy. My suicdial thoughts are coming back. I honestly do not want to tell anyone. I just wanna go far away and just disappear. If I told my family they would just say that I’m going to hell and that god is going to be disappointed in me. I no longer feel motivated to live. I just wanna go slit my wrist and bleed out. I just need help………