I slowly sinking into a deep dark place all alone. As time goes by I realise that I have depression as much as I hate to admit it. Every now and then I will start to condemn myself and every decision I ever made. I will want to hurt myself by pinching and slowly develops to biting. I dare not go on as I know if I grab a knife I might just cut myself. So every time there's a urge I will just pinch myself to get back to reality. Occasionally I close my eyes and imagine how nice would it be if I just jumped off a building. Just one step was all it will take to end it all. I know I should seek help but to who? I don't trust anyone and my friends and family would only reject me. All I'm telling myself is I'm ok I will pull through. My time to die will come. I live everyday anticipating it. I want to die.