Many say I'm too young to think about my future, they say I still have time, but to me, I don't. sometimes, I think I'm not smart enough or pretty enough to be perfect. I didn't get accepted to a special program, I was surprised so was my family. I love math and science, and I love conducting experiment and learning. I do great at school, but I'm not good enough for a special program, this bothers me so much because I work so hard, but it never pays off. I'm a disappointment to my family and even to myself. I let myself down. I don't know where I'm going in the future. I just want to be an inspiration to young girls when I grow up, but I don't have anyone to inspire me. slowly I'm giving up my education, even though I don't want to. My own family said this is a sign I wont ever become something great when I grow up, I want to prove them wrong, but I cant. I guess I'm too weak. I guess I'm just lost.