Last night I finally had the courage to tell my mom a bit of what is happening inside my head but my anxiety peaked up. She started asking me what's bothering me and I was stuck trying to figure out how to say that I don't wang her to know what is going on. But i told her that I think i need professional help she dismissed it as I might need to undergo counseling and I could ask for help at my school. Honestly, who would ask help from the source of their anxiety? She asked me if I was being bullied because they frequently think that I am not a college student. And the first thing that came to my mind that it is worthless. it is worthless to talk it out with people who will never understans the constant feeling of anxiety that its starts making me feel sick, like hinestly I had chest pains that can't be explained by my doctors. I had a check up that showed everything was normal but IM STILL IN PAIN. I just want everything to end. Nobody understands and I'm already tired of explaining. Please. I just want to live my life the way I want to. I'm tired of living my life for others'expectations of me. Please. Kill me now.