I'm in a family of 9 so everything is crazy at points, I have 2 older sisters who are best friends but seem to forget that i exist. One of them is basically my worst enemy… my younger brother only plays these boyish things and I'm sorta a girly girl. the rest of my sibling are WAY younger than me… So a lot of the time I'm lonely and feel kinda sad a lot. In school i have a boyfriend but in school it sorta feels like I'm pretending to be something I'm not, you know like your calling things stupid that you like to do yourself to impress your friends. I don't know how to deal with a lot of pressure as usually I'm very confident so sometimes I lash out at people but I really do try to be happy a lot i just don't feel it. My mum and dad pay attention but i think they are fed up with it.
Sorry if I'm wasting your time i just thought this might make me feel better.