well tonight was supposed to be amazing but I have no boyfriend and no one wanted to stay with me tonight so I was alone and im underage so I couldn't drink the night away but I wish I could've im from a strict family so I have to be a good child or whatever and im a middle child so I now things about my siblings that my parents would freak out about but I have to be perfect to the siblings and my parents which I hatei feel like all of friends secretly hate me and wish I would just disappear which sometimes I wish I could too but im only 13 and god is the only thing holding me back, im act all stuck up and tuff in front of everyone but im dying inside and cry whenever im alone because I kno tht everone tht I hang out with only hangs out with me because I ask them too I kno that they wish I wasn't with them or here