I just cant take it anymore. It’s overwelhming, and I just can’t f***ing breathe. All the walls they’re crushing down on me, and I’m falling. I can’t see the light, and I just want to go away. To talk to somebody, to let them know. But there isn’t anyone I can’t tell, anyone I want to know. There has never been someone, not really. Curse my brain, I just – can’t take it. I want to die, but I can’t. First of all I dont want to deal with the things that can happen if I don’t succeed. Second, I’m afraid to give up my chances. To let myself down, in case it really does get better. But I still can’t be happy.