I don't know what I'm doing with my life I only have one friend and I'm constantly lying to her. I hate lying to her but I don't know why I don't stop and not only that but I'm dating someone and that I am completely in love with but I don't feel sexually attracted to the person but I do feel attracted to my only friend because we have dated before and I don't know what to do my life is a mess and I don't know what to do.