Dear Father Figure, I hope you are good wherever you are. How am I ? I feel like im drowning. I need you to just whisper in my ear once in a while. I miss you is an understatement. I feel like s***. I feel like all the choices ive made so far are just going to end up in nothingness and i will decay and be nothing but a corpse in this cruel world. Nonetheless, Mom misses you Malak and Charlene too. We all do. Watch out for me big papa like you always did while you roamed the earth and just give me signs when bad things are going to happen.Im sorry i didnt come to the funeral, i couldnt bare to face the reality