i feel so stupid. its like i dont know anything. everyone around me is so smart and i have to ty so hard to catch up. why? i know my stuff but i just go blank. i can never answer a question in class or volunteer on my own. never. why
it wasnt always like this. there was a time where i would never give a second thought before i did things. Whats happening now? and why now? when i most need it. sometimes i really and truly think the universe is working against me. if i want something, it'll make sure that it never happens, if i hope, it will all go to waste. i honestly dont know why i even bother to try. it never works out. School, homelife, and those couple of times when i like someone. I'm just so tired of this. there are some people who dont even have to try, and im here working twice as much only to keep coming up short.