it must be really easy to sit there and judge what you failed to understand. it must be easy to hate, condemn, you worked so hard for it. though it never crosses your mind that it was you who pushed it all away. did i have a hand in it, sure. though i don't disrespect or get out of my way to hurt you. the only nuance is my existence to you and that's only because you are searching not i. you don't think i don't hear "stupid…" this and "stupid" that at every time i do something you don't agree with? ask yourself why you hate me so much, and then see if it's doing anyone any good at all. you watch and and you hate and then you act on it. then you feel whatever, for whatever reason, you slap on a sorry until next time again. abusing religion much? to confess your sins and rinse and repeat? it doesn't work that way, in fact, i am only sorry because you can't rise as high as your own inherent potential and having my name attached or associated with that is what hurts the most. i really do wish you well, believe it or not, and i do see the exit from the hole you are currently residing in, if you weren't so stubborn, you would have seen that first hand.