one of the perks of having elephant brain is that you have no choice but to make amends with everything, this way you also understand the whole of human nature and be able to forgive everyone on their ignorance (not practicing in the now but floating somewhere in the past or the future). you can't run away from yourself. no matter how peaceful or good you say you are, there are unseen forces and entities who have good night vision. above all, be honest and truthful with yourself.