you wake up a part of me that nobody else can. i used to attribute these feelings to a sense of control or loss of it or temporary or fleeting. perhaps because there's so much of everything out there that's rather misleading. though as of late, something within me has seriously shifted. in an ephemeral state of being, i feel a weight has been lifted. and with that clarity, i feel deeply and consciously. knowing and understanding a deeper meaning.though the concept is still new to me, even though i feel ancient with it, i feel at peace with the way i am feeling. for a moment, in time and space, my thoughts cease to exist within me. no fear no worries none of that. not trying to understand because i trust it. though the underlying elements of understanding are still there within me. it's just not being struggled to surface or chase after it to claim it. it's rather freeing. and it's all the more beautiful just to allow myself to feel it. i feel the realness of the paces that we create, or that they have existed within us, and we are able to both access and dwell within.