2 weeks…its been two weeks since my finaće had passed. Everywhere I go I see you. Every decision I make I think about how you would want me to approach if you were stil here. It doesnt feel like you are gone. Not a day has gone by without you in my thoughts. Just the thought of life without you around scares me. You were the only person I had in my life. I have no friends, no family, just you. What am I suppose to do now that youre gone? It all still feels unreal , everytime I close my eyes I can see your face. Your smile..how happy we were when we were together. How we promised we would never leave each other and were going start our lives together finally. I dont want to live anymore.. It hurts so much. I dont know what to with myself. I want to go to where you are. Why didnt you take me with you? Why did you leave me all by myself in this world? Life wasnt life without you. You wouldn't get mad at me if I go find you right? Even if I cant find you Im just tired…Im tired of living in this scary world. I have no purpose anymore…I just want to go to sleep forever.