I want to go away forever. Now when I say that, I don't necessarily mean suicide, I just mean from this reality that I call my life. If anyone ever reads this, keep in mind that I'm only young but not too young. Every time I talk, I'm only 'talking back'. When I stay quiet, I'm 'being disrespectful'. I'm criticized on everything I do because 'it's not the right way'. I don't want to keep throwing my emotions through my screen except I'm just so tired of everything. I know things get better, they mostly always do. But I'm just really tired now. My friends say they'll always be there for me, but they never were yet because I always hide my pain and act cheerful and always smile. I like smiling in front of them, they make me feel better usually by just being themselves. But it's lonely. I just want to be at peace with myself. Damn it, I'm crying again and I'm just tired.