the problem is, people say things to me without knowing how much they actually do affect me. Just because i text you that i am laughing does not mean i am in real life. over the screen, you cannot see my face. Half of the time when someone says something that hurts me i tear up because life for me right now is difficult.But those people think they are joking when it is not a joke. there are some people there for me and some that are not. sometimes i think about what would happen if i wasnt here.