I don't feel like myself anymore.i thought that the real reason of my depression leaving my life would cause the depression to leave me too but I just feel the same sense of hopelessness as I did before.
My motivation is gone,I don't even converse that much with my mother anymore,She's a mess so is my sister.
It's like I have this vessel full of emotions and it's not coming out.im going to slowly drown aren't I?
I feel alone.no more like lonely.
I'm going back to the way I used to be.i feel like my life is toxic once more and the worst part is I don't know why,at least before academic stress was the root cause but this mystery.
I'm never going to be able to tell my mum about this due to my good old friend anxiety,I know I desperately need help..i feel like bawling my eyes out but the eyes,I have to force them out so I don't combust.
What is happening to me?