Well I never been like this, I’ve always been emotional, I’ve always get mad easily but things seem to have fallen apart more than before. I look at the mirror and I don’t like myself and it’s not even the scars anymore it’s deeper, in my eyes there is something I don’t like. I remember when i had it all: friends, boyfriend, work, good grades and family loving me and now it all has fallen apart. I have no one, sure I do have friends sure I do have a boyfriend, but he’s not here next to me anymore and my family? Everything i do is wrong everything i say is stupid and selfish and I’m sitting here just wanting to fly away. Literally sitting here on a friday night with a party to go to and no one has called my phone to see if I am going to go. I am no importance to this world. If i was to sleep forever maybe everyone would noticed but no one would care after a while.. why because I probably would be miss but not to the point to say man if she was hereee.. no not to that point. Everything I wanted is not what I want anymore and am falling everyday more into a point that I don’t want to wake up. I hate it I hate everything I used to care how i looked my weight my hair my clothes and lately it’s been like why bother nobody notices anyways. I feel useless, I hate myself and I miss everything that I had. I am replaceable just like a chair that has been in your living room for years and suddenly you buy a new one. Sure you will notice your living room looks different but slowly the memory will fade away and it would be like it never existed. I am two face, and not a good friend. I pushed everyone away and no one has noticed it. They don’t miss me they say they do, but if they did they would try to get me back and slowly i fade into the darkness. I hate myself.