think i’ve just realised im holding out for someone who doesnt really no who or what she wants, she says she thinks its best if we just stay friends but she rings me and would be on the phone for hours just talking and we wuld end up falling asleep on the phone to each other, like i no i flirt with her when i realy shouldnt but she flirts back just as much, we’ve been friends for the last 2 years and and i like her from day one but i never said anything it was her who told me she liked me, so we were meeting for 2 r 3 months aand literally one day day was it, like nothing was said about it, she went from being real lovey dovy to LITERALLY nothing! she pretended the last 3 months didnt happen, it really did hurt because wwere really good friends so i would see her at least 2 r 3 times a week and she just went on like we never had anything,

so that was that, that was like a yr ago now but in the last 6 to 8 weeks the flirting thing is happening again, she did say she just wants to be friends but she’s doing sum serious flirting, we’ve been texting and talking ALOT more often lately to, i was out with her last night with 1 of our mutual friends but our friend got totally sloshed so we left early, so she went her way with her mates n i went my way with mine but funny enough we ended up in the same bar in town, we said hi to each other that was about it and she and her mates went upstairs n me n my mates stsyed downstairs, anyway id say a good 2 hours after gettin there i went to the toilet and bumped into her “friend” who told me they werent just friends that she was her girlfriend, i left like total s***, yet again she made me feel all the feelings i had for her the first time then i find out she’s seeing sum1!!!! i dont get how she can play with my emotions so easily, i really dont want to have to distant myself from her r take her out of my life altogether, there has to be sum sort of compermise, coz i cant keep letting her hurt me the way she has, but i cant loose her as a friend, dunno wat to do my head it melted 🙁