I looked this place up because I don’t like hand writing in my journal and no one knows who I am so it makes it so much easier because I need to express myself where I won’t be judged. I need to cry sometimes because I’m overly sensitive, and sometimes I think of things that will make me cry. I’m not insane, and I’m perfectly normal ( I hope ). I have rules I stand by and when they are used it makes me very upset. I hate when someone curses at me, because it shows they are angered with me. I hate when people change because I loved them so much the way they were.
I am not an adult quite yet but getting there in two years. I am female and I am in a relationship. I miss how things were when he’d do anything for me and things have changed so much. I don’t get all the respect I used to have and our relationship has dulled. I don’t know if it’s him or me but I know I haven’t changed. I apologize too much and that annoys him, but I can’t help it. I love to be with him all the time but I know he doesn’t feel the same. He isn’t about cuddling and talking anymore, there is only one subject on this guys mind and everyone knows what it is. We have been together for over 6 months and everything was running smoothly until the fourth month. After that so much has changed and I have been more upset than ever. You may say I’m too young to understand but I do. I know what life is and what to do to succeed, and I try my hardest but nothing ever goes your way, I know that, and people do change, but I wish they didn’t. I can’t afford what I have and I can’t afford to loose any of it either.