i cant help you. im trying and i cant. i cant figure out how to make you smile again. i cant figure out how to make you happy again. we used to be so happy together then both our lives pretty much dropped down the steepest hill, a hill that we cant get back up. i wanna help you. i really do. i wanna make you happy. but i cant. i wanna love you but you wont let me. im sorry your mom read the note. im sorry things couldnt just be perfect with us together away from all this s***. im gonna marry you. i know i am. there isnt a doubt in my mind. were gonna run away together and be happy. all ive wanted since we started talking again was for you to be happy and im not sure how to make it happen. you dont realize how much you mean to me and how i would kill for you. if i could run over to your house and hold you in my arms as we both cried i would. your my everything. i love you.