Lately I’ve been feeling this undeniable yearning for someone to be with and pursue a relationship with. For the past few years I’ve been really looking down upon having a relationship at this point in time of my life. I’m sixteen years old and my life has been quite a havoc since the age of thirteen. I never know where my life is headed, everything always changes, I’m a mobile. So many problems at home, emotionally, financially, physically, mentally. I’ve had feelings for this guy for about 3 years, we wanted to date back then but at that age, I knew that something so soon wasn’t going to last, I didn’t want to bother and on top of that ruin our friendship. This past week, those same feelings have been returning and haunting me, repeatedly. I find myself constantly thinking about him and wondering if he still has those feelings for me that he did a long time ago. He hasn’t seen anyone since then, he doesn’t talk to girls much like he does with me. A part of me wants something to blossom over time and the other knows deep down that maybe a relationship isn’t the best of choices, but sometimes I feel that it would be nice to have someone that you can share yourself with and create a special bond with. I’m tempted to figure things out with him, but i’m stuck on him being able to cope with my lifestyle. I don’t think he’d ever understand what i’ve been through, what i’m going through and what i will go through. I just want someone that will be understanding and be loyal and trustworthy with me. That’s all I really ask. I’m trying to figure out if he is the right one, but at the same time, I have my doubts. But my haunting feelings won’t let me evade the thoughts I have about him.