Ill do inteoductions, I’m a girl, I’m 16, I have Asperger’s syndrome and everyone around me seems to use this against me. I’ve tried so many times to put down into words the hopelessness I have been feeling but I just can’t seem to get down onto *paper* what I feel inside my head.
However good you are in school, however sporty you are, however musical you are, etc etc, if they try to give you a label for something get out of there, because they will tie you down, hold you down until you can’t breathe properly. I was fine, but what has happened since my diagnosis has ruined me, I can’t even go out by myself because of anxiety, just because they forced everyone to look at me differently.
I’ve gotten to the point where I am so isolated, tired, scared and downright depressed I don’t want to live, but my cowardly self won’t even let myself endure a few minutes of pain to escape from this.