Why do I have to be called crazy ? I can’t stand that it just makes everything so worse on me . I know I need to be on medication but it isn’t my fault that the doctor office is stupid and don’t return calls and I don’t have a vehicle to drive there . I have to depend on everyone else. Because I do not have my d.l’s my dad taught me how to drive a little but not really great at it . And i’m 25 years old. What kind of 25 year old do not have their license? Am I that stupid I couldn’t even pass the written part? I’m failing my college courses in paralegal and I can’t even bring my self to tell my own daddy that I can not do this whole college thing. Maybe I thought if I did something like going to college my dad would be proud of me and I wouldn’t feel all disowned by him since him and his wife adopted a kid. my fiance keeps saying that I’m the one who is letting my grades slip its my fault when all I want is to be comfort and feel loved instead of feeling lonely and all by myself. I have noone to really talk to . My best friend goes back and tells my mom everything I say , can’t talk to my roommates , and my fiance doesn’t understand at all . He thinks i’m just all crazy and that I need to stop but being bipolar and not on medicine is hard mentally and emotionally but he don’t understand at all.