I have a problem
every time im happy i remember that eventually i will die. This makes me not be able to enjoy life.
But the i think…. Why do i even need to enjoy life if im going to die?
some people say:
You might as well enjoy it if you only live once #YOLO HAHAHAHAH.
…really?
what is the freaking point. i see nothing productive out of changing the world or curing cancer or saving lives or anything.
i am so desensitized that when people in my life die ( Ex. My grandpa) I was not actually sad. At his funeral when everyone was crying, i was smiling because i was celebrating his life and i didnt care that he died, because i know that i will be there some day also and that even if it is in 60 or even 70 years, that is nothing compared to the anout of time i will be dead for (forever).
Ok that was one dumbass thought of mine. heres another:
DEATH:
Scenario #1: You are religious and believe in heaven.
You die and go up to heaven and god accepts you. you start living in heaven. forever. thats right. forever. wtf why would anyone want to do something forever? That means you will ‘live’ and NEVER die. take a moment and think about that. NEVER. here ill give you some room to think..
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Its a long f***ing time. how does living in a place where everything is perfect change anything? you still live for freking ever. EVENTUALLY, you as a being would have done everything that is possible in this universe/heaven. then what?
do it again?
then what?
again.
again.
again.
you see my point?
Scenario #2: You do not believe in heaven/not religious:
You die and thats it. you are gone forever. think about THAT!!
THAT s*** is freaking terryfing. honestly. Think about it.
It means that you as a being/soul/human/decomposed bones will never be able to COMREHEND anything ever again.
Life sucks.