even on this i still feel like i shouldnt say everything, because you’ll see it. and i dont want to know what you’ll say. i dont want to think that you dont feel the EXACT same way as i do. that you dont desire what we had at some point still. that it will always just be a friendship, which i half-ass and im so sorry for the way i put you off. i just cant imagine letting him go for good, because i know i’ll turn to you and just fall in love with you all over again like i was all my freshman year and a great portion of my sophomore year.