I am engaged, but very nervous. I am getting married this summer. And I am head over heels in love with this man, but sometimes I wonder if I am ready. I am 20 years old, and I wonder if that is too young. I hear all these stories that marriage can break up a good bond because of all the stress. I don’t know who else to talk to. I cannot talk to my husband about this stuff. He is excited. My entire family is excited. But I feel like I never got the chance to really live. This man I am marrying has been my only boyfriend. We met in high school and were crazy in love and just stayed together I suppose. We still have a spark, but nothing like it used to be. I feel like I never got the chance to be silly and live on my own and have one night stands. And this is terrible to say, but I wish I did. Right after high school my boyfriend and I rented an apartment and then, later down the line, he asked me to be his wife. Something every one knew was going to happen. I feel so trapped. I do love him. But I also want adventure.